Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Writer's Block


Hey everyone, I just wanted to let you all know I've been experiencing major writer's block for the past month and haven't been able to think of any ideas for any long articles and have trouble even writing medium-length articles, for example, MV reviews.



Don't worry though, as I'll still try to be active here, even if it's all with shitposts (like how it used to be when I started out). Even if it's just to post something about Twice, there will still be activity on AKF.

The main reasons I'm having trouble writing my usual articles in my usual way is that I have finally started treating my depression. Just like how Teddy started writing shit songs when he got happier, I'm starting to write shit posts now. It's much easier to troll when one is miserable every day, and ever since I've started treatment, I've only wanted to do the fapticles, but when you're seeing a cute girl, you're going to be spending more time with her than looking up fancams and gifs to share on your site.


The worst problem I'm having is depression-induced insomnia. I've been prescribed Ambien, which is a highly addictive drug (I even had to go to work for a week straight on a medicated high, think of it as the beginning stages of being drunk, but all day), and with my last prescription running out pretty soon (psychiatrist basically refuses to prescribe it to me any more after this), I'll be going through major withdrawal symptoms. I've already gone through them once, and I was getting two hours of sleep a night and waking up to weird dreams and nightmares every half hour.

Lastly, most of you guys know by now I'm trying to get out of my job. I sold my soul to have a great company's name on my resume, but I didn't know that it would consume my life the way it has so far. 

So while a lot of things are changing in my personal life, I'll do my best to keep AKF live and well. This really is a one of a kind site and would feel like a part of me was missing if I was to just suddenly quit writing. Twice has guaranteed that I'll be in the fandom for more years to come lol.

23 comments:

  1. There hasn't really happened much recently in terms of scandals, netizen bullshittery etc. to talk about.

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    1. >.there hasn't been much in terms of scandals

      Except for the whole Choi Sun Sil controlling the Korean president thing which turned out to be FUCKING REAL LIKE HOLY FUCK

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  2. Good luck! Say the pretty girls to you…

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  3. Takes creativity to write wow them legs I don't have to say shit.

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  4. Good luck. When I first began my treatment for BPD I felt like I was becoming less productive, too, but mostly because I was taking medications to reduce my anxiety and they made me really lazy, at first. I think it's more of a moment of adaptation. You'll either go back to be your poisonous self or find comfort in a new writing technique. Best wishes!

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  5. Look into TMS therapy for your depression and insomnia. I battled with it for 10 years, and it's the only thing that's given me good results.

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  6. Really hope you do well. Treating a mental problem and battling your own demons can really fucking hard. Having OCD combined with severe anxiety, depression and an eating disorder (I know it sounds too much and tumblrish but let's just say I didn't have a great childhood and my parents don't carry the best genes out there) I can only wish you the best :)

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  7. Don't worry, Twice is back to cure your depression.

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DqYw5RjyzGc

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  8. Writer block will not stop you from showing off your Paint skills.

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  9. Fighting! Your change of attitude is half the battle.

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  10. I pray to Nayeon's bunny teeth you will get through all this. Stay strong.

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  11. Hoping that you will get through this difficult time.

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  12. Keep writing kid. You're prolific. Even though you were a pain in the ass to me on my Bambino stanning talent & the passionate need to bond in tough moments. If it helps, Zen meditation & physical activity might be useful. Most depressions actually (80%) end or lessen w/o any intervention. Biochemistry & self-awareness help cure. Good luck.

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  13. Congrats AKF, hope you get through this.

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  14. At least Teddy and Han Ye Seul are over lol, that'll definitely help

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  15. Tell us what we really want to know: does your new girlfriend look more like Nayeon or Yebin?

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    1. None of the above, she's 3/4 white haha.

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    2. poor woman to be with someone like you

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  16. honestly, take all the time you need to readjust, there's no rushing it. as someone who has a lot of my own mental shenanigans it's fucking difficult to function sometimes, let alone write finished and coherent stories / articles

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  17. I hope this writer block keeps forever you wont be missed

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